Hiccup

"Excuse me but this is just a talking fish bone."

I lost myself by then.

I know it seems to be delirious that I could be so cool and calm right now like I freaking own my SPM results even before it starts. But why am I just so numb? People keep on telling me to my best but am I really? Why can't I take this seriously anymore?

Why do I built myself up then break myself down?